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Reality is as reality does. Who is to say reality is the same or different or anything but completely subjective and random. I made you built you up to be something majestic      someone worth loving. So when you turned out to be something I hadn't thought you to be I crashed and realized what I perceived to be true was only a figment of my overactive desperate imagination          and now I miss someone who had never existed. Perhaps being human means we will always let ourselves down more than others ever could. Perhaps it means our personal realities will always lead to disappointment.

we attempt to hide behind pretty words and cover up with simple stories but it's hardly seen that someone say the truth letting it flow out strong a river that carries a truth yet accepted the thing is, two simple words; same love has given to others such a harmful scene hatred has spread riots were thrown and relationships torn but why? nothing changed people are the same after all we're human... we share emotions, the feeling of shy love that blossoms into something more and moments, that lingering hug and the first goodnight kiss and memories, heartaches and pains and mistakes we've made yet many stand and say "Phase" yet I'm in love with

Open the gate But enter at risk If you lose Then you won't be able to quit Do not stray You will get lost If you do Then you won't find the way Open the gate But enter at risk I got lost And now I wish I could quit

I'm not a perfect person There's so many things I wish I didn't do But I'm always learning I don't know why I did those things before So I want to say to you right now That I just need you to hear I found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new And the reason is you I never want to leave you You're something I could never bear to lose For that now I'll try my hardest So I can always stay with you And be the one who wipes and dries your tears So I need you to hear I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new And the reason is you The reason is you It'll alwa

This feeling isn't normal My heart beats so fast it may push its way through the rib cage; the skin I can't express the way you make me feel Shattered glass rips through my heart The feeling of your touch ever so lightly against my skin sends chills down my spine I couldn't imagine life without you I'm nothing without you I am speechless when you're around It's not normal I'm insane I can't sleep at night with your face in my thoughts I toss and turn all night needing your presence Even if the only thing I can feel is pain, it's better than feeling nothing at all I couldn't imagine life without you I'm nothing without you My lo

I said goodbye to the monsters living under my bed long before you could even admit you had any. Denial is/was/will always be your best friend because it's easier to pretend something isn't there than face those demons sitting on your shoulders suffocating you under the weight of our failing humanity. But you can't hide forever and when you finally open your eyes to all you have been rejecting I fear all the disappointment and fear will crush you collapse your lungs and keep you from breathing throw you into a permanent state of shock; it will be something you will never recover from something that will tear you apart co